Monday, 20 February 2012

Black Sheep

Photo Credit: Telegraph

Its been a while since I posted here.

There are some good reasons for this. Equally, there has been laziness, on my part.

So exactly what has compelled me to update with this post?
Well, a few things actually.

I have recently returned to the land of the living and have rejoined Facebook and Twitter. After a 6/7 month absence from social media, I have to say that I've found the adjustment of talking to people again quite challenging.

I made a mistake too. Something that I found difficult to accept. But it was a mistake. MY mistake.

I followed a whole group of people that I used to be very chatty with. A group of people that I thought of as friends. But when you've spent half a year being completely out of sight and mind, you can't just walk back in and be welcomed with open arms.
I learnt this the hard way.

I'm not sure what I expected of these people. Some were great, some were cagey, and one or two were just not liking my presence there at all. So I left the group.
I didn't want confrontation. I didn't want sympathy. I didn't want empathy. I just wanted the space to be 'me' while being able to chat with some of the loveliest people I've ever had the pleasure of getting to know.

All good things come to an end, right?
And this is my end. The end of me worrying about this. The end of me wishing I could be someone else to fit in. The end of being part of this group of friends.